“Father, please show me my sin.”
One of the things that is bubbling to the surface in this
journey is that constant state of anger that exists because of past pain. Things that I have buried for years seem to be
plaguing my waking and sleeping. I
dreamt a couple of nights ago about an incident the happened when I was eleven
years old. That is four decades ago for
those who do not know.
I awakened angry and in pain over this thing that occurred and
is long gone. I realized that I had not
forgiven the person involved. I realized
that I had allowed the incident to shape and own a part of me that is supposed
to belong to Christ. I think that there
things I submerge instead of truly forgiving someone and moving on to be closer
to Christ and his kind of forgiveness.
I know that in pride I can overlook things that I do not
really forgive. It seems that I bury
them and they feed a latent malignant anger that longs to destroy me. I must assure that I practice true love and forgiveness
by allowing my heart to release the things done to me and move with Christ
toward the redemptive love he wishes me to have for everyone. Boy anger makes me mad.
Wishing you joy in the journey,
Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer
who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home
owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure
store."
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