Second Thoughts – Jar of Hearts

Greetings Dear Reader,

Sometimes I will end the day with thoughts that are important to get out.  Usually I just write them and put them in my journal folder.  I have chosen that on occasion I will share them with you Dear Reader.

I always believe that love can crush any barrier.  I have a heart that wishes to always forgive and leave opportunity for love to win.  Some days that is much harder than others.  Today is one of those days.

Impending anniversaries and time markers seem to have me battling internally.  I see people dear to me struggling to do their best to do what is right when the one they wish to aid seeks to use them instead.  Manipulation and control surface in response to care and compassion.

I think there comes a time whether it is a town, a job, or a relationship where we never stop loving but still have to kick the dust from our feet.  We have a journey to continue and we cannot beg others to walk with us when what they wish is to instead drag us down with them. 

It is a broken heart that I carry because of those who gave up on me.  It is also that still beating broken heart that hesitates to set aside anyone.  Still there are times when reaching out is a self-inflicted wound.  I never write anyone off.  I never stop loving anyone.  I also have to learn when proximity is poison.  I have to learn when devotion is danger.  Who do you think you are?

Jar of Hearts – Christina Perri

No, I can't take one more step towards you

'Cause all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

Deas took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn

Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”

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Impossible Dreams – Broken Hearts

Greetings Dear Reader,

Perhaps the most dangerous thing in believing in the impossible is you have to put your heart into something to believe in it.  Hearts are infinitely breakable.  The effect of them breaking can go on for a lifetime and in some cases longer.  It has even been medically proven that a heart can be actually broken.  It is a condition called Takotsubo.

If we dare to dream then our hearts will be broken.  If we dare to have faith our faith will be realized but our hearts will be broken.  If we love unconditionally our heart will be broken.  Our hearts will be broken but we will not lose.  We may suffer loss.  We may be alone and lonely.  We may even feel we are desolate.  We will, however, dreams, faith, and love accounted for.

Our dreams may not come true but if not they will be replaced with better, nobler ones.  Our faith will be refined, purified, and fulfilled by God.  Our hearts may be in pieces with the shards as far apart as the distance between the stars.  We need to do what is right no matter what the cost.  We need have faith, love, dreams, and hope.

If I follow then I follow the one whose heart I have broken with my sin.  Even in a broken heart I have fellowship with him.  He loves my gained understanding and renewed commitment.   He does not want me to be hurt but knows how he will use the hurt to heal.  He knows how he will make all things right.  He knows how he will heal.  He knows how he will someday mend all hearts.

I will dream the impossible dream of all hearts one day attuned to his.  I will ask him to play mine and all heartstrings in his unification song.  I will follow.  I may limp or even crawl.  When I think I cannot do it Christ will sustain me. 

Where Are You Going Great Heart?  - John Oxenham

Where are you going, Great-Heart,

With your eager face and your fiery grace?

Where are you going, Great-Heart?"

"To fight a fight with all my might,

For truth and justice, God and right,

To grace all life with His fair Light."

Then God go with you, Great-Heart!

Where are you going, Great-Heart?

"To cleanse the earth of noisome things,

To draw from life its poison stings,

To give free play to freedom's wings."

Then go with you, Great-Heart!

Where are you going, Great-Heart?

"To lift today above the past,

To make tomorrow sure and fast,

To nail God's colors to the mast."

Then God goes with you, Great-Heart!

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn

Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”

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