Showing posts with label hunger. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hunger. Show all posts

29 January 2020

The Hunger We Feed ~ Closing Thoughts


Greetings Dear Reader,

I began this line of thought with a story of two dogs.  It was a reflection of our two natures and the truth is that the nature we feed is the one that wins.  We could stop there and go on our way enlightened and better followers.  You know me better than that.

Here then is another story of two dogs from the ancient sage Aesop:
A man had two dogs: a Hound, trained to assist him in his sports, and a Housedog, taught to watch the house. When he returned home after a good day's sport, he always gave the Housedog a large share of his spoil. The Hound, feeling much aggrieved at this, reproached his companion, saying, "It is very hard to have all this labor, while you, who do not assist in the chase, luxuriate on the fruits of my exertions." The Housedog replied, "Do not blame me, my friend, but find fault with the master, who has not taught me to labor, but to depend for subsistence on the labor of others."

First, I want to say something about the Hound in the story.  He misses the value of the Housedog.  The Housedog has a very important role in the household structure.  Aesop states clearly that his job is to watch the house.  This job is no less important than that of the Hound.  The Hound has taken up an offense without truly seeing the value of his companion; without understanding the work by which he is offended. 

I would also like to consider the Housedog and his understanding of his role.  He too does not see that is work carries great responsibility in caring for the household’s safety.  He does not understand the wisdom of the master in teaching him to guard the home.  He does not see the value of his assigned role.

Further, the Hound has questioned the wisdom of the master in doing with his dogs as he will.  He hungers for something that is not his and for which he is not intended.  There are a couple of key applications here that follow with the refining of our hunger.  One is to understand that we do not always understand what we judge.  We increasingly speak empty words without knowledge.  We judge others without learning who they really are.  In this, we feed hatred instead of love.  We dine on offenses instead of peace.

We also do not see the value of what we do in many areas.  We assign worth to things based on the opinions of others instead of measuring how things further the love and peace in the world.  Our understanding of fair and equal is skewed by our opinions instead of our love for the Father and each other.  We constantly feed the hunger to capitalize or socialize the world instead of seeing that true peace and freedom are only found in dealing with every human lovingly. 

When we feed anger and offense over injustices real or manufactured, we abandon the only fuel that can resolve true injustice.  We must use love and humility to battle the things in the world that are not good.  Hatred and anger never yield peace.  They are the path to violence and darkness.  They are the food of eventual evil. 

If I am going to nurture my love for every human, I must not feed my offenses.  In truth, I must see everyone through the eyes of Christ and his love for them.  The social issues that confront us all require that we love as Christ does.  That means that I need to take up very few offenses.  I must become lovingly unoffendable without being blind to the need of others.  This is and always will be a hard place to stand.  It is, however, the path to peace and the way home.  I hope you will walk it with me, Dear Reader.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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28 January 2020

The Hunger We Feed ~ Haters going to Starve


Greetings Dear Reader,

Some years ago, my friend Meghan challenged me on my use of the word evil.  She proposed that I used it too liberally.  Her thought made me question my use of this word and it impacted me to the point that I greatly reduced what I call evil. 

Ponder something you actually hate.  Note that I said something and not someone.  We will get to that.  For example, I hate lima beans.  You can do anything you wish to try and make them palatable but I hate them.  In truth, however, I should not hold hatred in my heart for a bean.  It is an overuse of the word hate.  I do dislike them more than most foods in the world.  They have value whether I like them or not and many people enjoy them.  They have nutrition and fiber that are valuable.  Were I starving, I would still eat them.  It is not proper for me to hate something that has genuine value.

To move our exercise in thinking along, ponder someone you hate.  It does not matter who it is.  Think about his or her name and ponder your hatred.  Hating a person is not like disliking a thing.  We immediately summon a list of offenses that justify our hatred.  We ponder all the wrong things that a person does, stands for, or is.  We recount the wrongs they do that are worse than the wrongs we do and declare them unworthy of love. 

We even grow to hate someone we once proclaimed to love.  Sometimes it is even someone we vowed to love for life.  You see, hating anyone is intrinsically wrong.  In the eyes of the Father, there are two things that are absolutely true.  The first is that we are commanded to love everyone to the degree that the Father loves us.  This is the essence of the second commandment.  We cannot obey the first command, to love God with all of our heart, mind, soul, and strength if we do not love other humans in every circumstance. 

Instead, we store up offenses that others commit to feeding the hunger of our hatred and still, that hatred is never satisfied.  Since we are to love everyone and love and hate cannot abide in the same space, we cannot afford to hate anyone.  When we give space to hatred, we must constantly feed it to keep it alive.  We must relive the wrongs done to us and make them superior in our minds to the love that Christ has for the person we hate.  In short, we must declare our judgment of the individual superior to Christ’s judgment of him or her.

The only honest conclusion that I can draw, Dear Reader, is that there is very little room in following Christ for hatred of any kind.  There is room to hate evil.  However, it is vital that we only call evil what God calls evil.  A person may commit evil deeds and we are allowed to hate those deeds.  We are not, however, given permission to hate the person.  When Jesus confronts the issue of people who refuse to own their wrongdoing, he makes it clear how we are to treat them.  After trying to lovingly get them to see and abandon their wrongs, he says if it is unsuccessful, treat them like tax collectors and pagans.  This begs a very important question. How did Jesus treat tax collectors and pagans?  He had dinner with them.  He loved them and invited them to follow him.

You see, Dear Reader, the reason that hatred has to be constantly fed is that we are never supposed to dine on it.  It does not satisfy.  The only thing we are to hate is evil and we are to show that hatred by loving those who do evil things beyond their actions in hope that they can be reclaimed.  It is not avoiding hatred that matters here.  It is loving everyone to the degree that there is no room for hatred.  It may be that all evil is rooted in failing to love others, including the Father, as we should.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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27 January 2020

The Hunger We Feed ~ Foraging for a Fight


Greetings Dear Reader,

I have recently been catching up on the series Alone.  For those who do not know it, individuals are dropped in a remote place with no food and a few necessities in order to survive alone for as long as they can.  There is no camera crew, they record themselves, and a satellite phone is provided when they choose to quit.

One of the aspects of this that captures my interest is the ways in which the contestants must forage for food.  They become true hunter/gatherers and often go hungry.  Hunger is one of the things that pushes them to tap out.  When they quit due to hunger, they exchange their chance at half a million dollars for a hot meal.  I cannot say what I would do in that situation.  I can say that it is a good insight into how hunger drives us.

When I ponder the idea of being driven by hunger, I see how often people are driven by the hunger for a cause as well.  I see how the hunger for their offense over a cause leads them to constantly forage for a fight about it.  The truth is that when we go looking for a fight, we usually find one rather easily.  In a world where being offended by things becomes a suture of our culture, this is increasingly true. 

It seems that so many of us are bound together by our offenses instead of by things that will sustain us.  Anger and offense may rally us around a common cause but they never sustain.  They are hungers that must be constantly fed.  Like a fire, fuel is ever demanded and quickly consumed.  Further, we become accustomed to looking for offenses from others instead of seeking commonality with them so that we can fuel our outrage. 

This is not the path of peace or the way of love.  This is not what yields kindness and grace.  When love is the hunger that drives us, we can choose not to be offended.  We can further choose to be lovingly unoffendable.  When we see Jesus become angry it is when righteousness and mercy are abused at the expense of others.  It is due to those entrusted with the way of love and peace abusing it for their own purposes.  When we choose the way of love, we can avoid most offenses.  We can become those who respond to every situation with love and compassion.

It is a world where we must forage for those of like mind and heart.  When we take up the hunger of anger and offense, we condemn ourselves to always being hungry.  When we follow Christ in love and peace, we dine on the Bread of Life and Living Water.  That is a meal worth seeking every day in every situation Dear Reader.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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26 January 2020

The Hunger We Feed ~ Oil and Glue


Greetings Dear Reader,

When working as a professor, I would often struggle with student reviews.  The problem was mine and not theirs.  If I received a hundred reviews in a semester and only one of them was negative, that was all that I seemed to take in.

I was mulling over this darkly at the end of a semester when I had 230 students and all the reviews were glowing save one.  This particular student had turned in zero homework, missed twenty percent of the class, and failed all three major tests in the course.  He failed because he did not put in the effort. 

When he came to me at the end of the term wanting to know how he could pass the course, my first thought was that he invent a time machine.  I did not say this.  Being a merciful man, I suggested that if he were to turn in all his missing work and make an “A” on the final, he might pass with a “D”.  He vowed to do all of this.  He did not.  He failed because he did not do the work.

His review stated that I was “the worst professor ever,” that I “did not care about my students,” and that I “needed to learn how to understand a student’s needs.”  Keep in mind that I had a couple of hundred other reviews that said things like, “the best professor ever,” and “I could not have gotten through this semester with his help.” 

As I sat pondering this, a colleague noticed my discomfort and inquired as to my consternation.  I showed her the review.  She asked to see some of the other ones.  She read a few more, smiling.  She turned to me and said, “Oil and glue”.  My expression made it clear that I had no idea what she meant.  I should have.

She explained that the best teachers are coated with oil and glue.  Good reviews slide off of them like they are water hitting oil.  Bad reviews stick like they are dry feathers hitting glue.  We want every student to succeed so we take in the negative and do not accept the positive.  The next day she gave me a book written specifically for college professors that addressed this.  I learned from it just how deeply I feast on the negative directed at me and pass over the positive.

In considering the things on which we feed this has to be a two-way street.  I have learned to allow the good things said to me to sink in even though I still feel unworthy most of the time.  I am learning to let the negative wash over me without being offended and learning what I can from it.

The more important aspect of this is to consider how I communicate things.  If I am being negative toward others, will I say something that sticks and cause them pain?  If I criticize more than I praise, am I neglecting the needs of those around me?  The easy answer is that I must not feed the hunger to be critical.  My thinking must be critical in the evaluative sense but must not become critical in the damaging, hurtful sense. 

If I am to feed others with grace, love, and kindness, I must look for the positive and the potential in others.  My duty is to tell them the potential I see and not try to force them into it.  I can, rather, love them and give them the space to become what they are designed to become.  I am obligated to be sensitive to my areas of oil and glue and to yours Dear Reader. 

If I look at how Jesus deals with others, he praises their faith and tells them their potential.  He shows them, love, where they are and offers them a better path.  It is Christ that will build in others the beauty they can achieve.  It is my duty to feed their hunger to be shown what can be without being critical of where they are right now.  Feeding the hunger to encourage others instead of feeding the desire to be critical is vital to being healthy in my congress with others.  In this, I can show love to others and work at becoming unoffendable.  I may even be able to switch the oil and glue.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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25 January 2020

The Hunger We Feed ~ Patterns of Taste


Greetings Dear Reader,

There is someone I love who has a problem for every solution.  The conversations with this individual usually go like this:

The person offers a statement of a problem in the form of a complaint.
Someone offers a very reasonable, practical, and applicable solution.
The person lists all the reasons why that solution will not work and goes on to complain about the problems with all the solutions.

This person’s hunger is to complain about things and not to find solutions to the problem.  The feasting on the complaints is the way in which this individual engages with the world.  Spending time with this person is to hear the problem present in every situation whether solicited or not.

There are two distinct challenges with this that I must recognize so that I continue to feed the hunger that is healthy.  The first is that I should understand that I do this at times.  When I am angry or frustrated over something, I can become unreasonable and fail to see the value of solutions offered by others.  I have to be humble to the reality that when I am irritated, I have to guard my mouth and thoughts so that I do not hurt those who wish to help me.

The second thing that I must guard against is feeding my hunger to resent people whose life patterns are to be this way.  If I fail to dine on forgiveness, forbearance, and love, I will instead feast on judgment and dismissal.  There is no satisfaction in the latter and my appetite for this will increase with every indulgence.  In the same way, if I develop my hunger for grace and mercy, I will feel satisfied in the right way when I show it without pride.

We all know someone who feasts on complaints, Dear Reader.  What I have to do is develop a habit of feeding them love and kindness, empathizing where I can, and avoiding the anger but not the person.  We are able to have peace in every situation if we refuse to dine on the offenses offered by the inconsolable. 

It is in knowing what is happening and choosing to rise above it that I can find the path to interacting with that person in love.  I will be healthier through refusing to be offended by another person’s choices.  Perhaps, I can even lighten the load for them by listening without losing my perspective and peace.  Shall we try it together, Dear Reader?

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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24 January 2020

The Hunger We Feed ~ Dining on Leftovers

Greetings Dear Reader,

If I ponder some of the best meals I have ever enjoyed, I can recall good times with family and friends, good food, and delightful delicacies.  Whether the meal is prepared by others, by me, or at a restaurant, the memories are carried on the recalled conversation, taste, and the experience.  Watching my Grandsons taste and enjoy foods for the first time is a prime example of a meal that I can recall and enjoy over and over again.

Often when I have food similar to that which I shared at a special moment; I recall that moment.  I reminisce over conversations and situations that brought me joy.  We all wish for things to be that way again.  The difficulty is that when I recall something wonderful, I cannot dine on those memories alone. 

We hunger for the feelings those moments gave us but that hunger can only be sustained by feeding it new good things.  Where we fail is that we try to force those situations instead of allowing them, as they did the first time, to arise naturally.  We load the environment with expectations instead of seeing the joy that is there on its own.

The conversations, experiences, and interactions we have all possess the potential to feed our need for fellowship, joy, and love.  It is like dining on those meals of celebration.  One must be sure to be present in that moment, dining on what is there instead of trying to satisfy our expectations.  Engaging in wishing for that which we desire instead of feasting on what the Father has provided is doomed to failure. 

Every moment has something to sustain us for the next one.  Every day has its blessings to fight the curse.  Each interaction and experience has something for us to gain a deeper understanding of who the Father is and how much he loves us.  Instead of seeking that, we focus on what we want the moment to be based on our memories and desires. 

It is good to appreciate the past.  It is satisfying to recall that which is good and let it make us hungry for good things.  We must, however, find those good things in the new experiences and not force leftover memories into them.  There is something in every event and eventuality to draw us closer to Christ if we look for it.  When I encounter you, Dear Reader my obligation is to show love to you and see what that yields.  It is not to demand that you reproduce feelings for me that I desire.

It is in the love that we give that we find our substance.  Demanding that others satisfy us based on our leftover memories only leads to being offended when we go unsatisfied.  That is the danger of trying to dine on memories.  Let us share a meal of reality based on love and kindness.  We will dine in peace and lovingly sustain each other.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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23 January 2020

The Hunger We Feed ~ Developing My Taste


Greetings Dear Reader,

In the ages-long battle of getting children to eat their vegetables, there exists the miracle of ranch dressing.  Almost any vegetable will be consumed by a child if dredged through a suitable quantity of the buttermilk-based condiment.  I recently heard one young child tell his younger sibling, “When you are older like me you will not need ranch just to eat your broccoli.”

As our tastes mature, we can begin to appreciate the tastes we have for things that seemed unpleased but are necessary.  This is true for every aspect of our lives.  We avoid the things we know we should do for which we have no taste.  We embrace the things that please our taste and often we do so to excess.

When we choose to mature our tastes to better ourselves, we become committed to doing that which is tasteless if it is necessary.  I often find that if I work through the tasteless part of developing a good habit, I begin to look forward to doing the things I should be doing.  The satisfaction of doing what is right for the sake of doing right is a taste that I long to develop in everything.

If I keep feeding the hunger of avoidance in any area, I will never develop the mature taste for doing what is right in that area.  It is through choosing to develop my taste for what is right that I can learn to follow Christ more closely.  If I feed the hunger of avoidance, I miss out on the bounty that lies in feeding on righteousness.  By failing to feed the right hunger here, I diminish my resources to love others and am more easily derailed by the temporal problems of the world.

Part of following Christ is developing the right tastes.  It is learning that dining on grace, kindness, mercy, and forgiveness leads to a taste for loving everyone with humility and peace.  The journey home requires that we grow these things so that we can share them with others.  You and I must develop our taste for them, Dear Reader if we hope to feel nourished on the journey.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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22 January 2020

The Hunger We Feed ~ Opening Thoughts


Greetings Dear Reader,

Anyone who has been around church for any length of time has heard the story of the two dogs.  I will try to relate it without the usual condescension and cultural appropriation.  I remember my Grandfather telling it from the pulpit on a few occasions when I was a boy.

A man is trying to relate his inner struggle.  He explains that there are two dogs inside him that are always fighting.  When relating the story, the narrator is asked, “Which one wins?”  His answer is “the one I feed.”

This obvious illustration about our two natures is a good one.  There is a facet to it that I ponder often and palaver over when I have the opportunity.  That would be the idea that since both of our natures are always hungry; I must examine what they hunger for and how I will manage the hunger.  The hunger is what creates the problems against which we must stand or the solutions we must embrace.

We hunger for many things both physically and emotionally.  Sometimes, we even hunger for things that we have never tasted.  We choose daily the things that we will satisfy and how we will obtain that satisfaction.  Physical hunger is simple enough.  Whether it be food, touch, or rest, we can find ways to fulfill our needs.  Even then we can feed the wrong thing if we are not vigilant. 

I think a more important step would be to identify the desire behind hunger when it comes to my soul and spirit.  I wish to spend some time walking through this and determine what it is that drives me.  When it gets down to it, we so often focus on the hunger we wish fed for our own purposes when we are supposed to hunger and thirst for the things that are righteous and good.

I hope you will keep me company as I ponder the hunger in me and what causes it.  I want to hunger for the right things.  Once I identify them, I wish to humbly ask the Father to provide them.  Your companionship in this is always welcome Dear Reader.  Your thoughts and questions push me to think better and live well.

The Lion’s Share – Dan Fogelberg

Grand slam, your moment's at hand
The day holds a costly bargain
Lost lamb asking the lion's share

Homespun, a prodigal son
Comes begging a humble pardon
But no one rises to hear his prayer

Lone star, you've wandered so far
And long in the unfamiliar
That now you travel a map unknown

Star bright, a constant delight
To those in the dark and still your
Birthright's to shine in the night alone

Living in the shadows
Of the things that might have been
Torn between the blessing and the curse

You may starve the hunger
But you'll never slake the thirst
For the nectar you remember
But you'll never taste again

Nonesuch, your Midas' touch
Has gilded your heart and left you
So much playing the prince of clowns

Hell-bent, empty and spent
Just look what your gamble's got you
Exiled, far from the sacred ground

Living in the shadows
Of the things that might have been
Torn between the blessing and the curse

You may stop the hunger
But you'll never slake the thirst
For the nectar you remember
But you'll never taste again

Grand slam, your moment's at hand
The day holds a costly bargain
Lost lamb asking the lion's share

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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16 October 2018

Daily Bread ~ Closing Thoughts


Greetings Dear Reader,

At the very core of our existence are very basic needs.  They are needs created in us as a species.  If we have these basic needs met we can subsist.  The truth is that we are not meant to merely subsist.

We can trace almost all of the ills in our culture to ways in which needs are not met.  We feel fear that leads to doing things that we think will fulfill our needs.  We adopt habits and strategies other than faith and following Christ to get our needs met and then we are astounded when they do not work. We still, over and over again think that we can depend on experiences and things instead of God.

If I am to honestly become someone who depends on the Father for daily provision, I should be able to write about it every day.  There are moments where that provision is obvious.  There are too many instances where I fail to acknowledge that the Father has provided for me.  Even more there are things are pursuing that are false fulfillment of genuine needs.  They do not satisfy and they do not last. 

The promise is that the Father has and will provide for me.  This does not mean that I will have everything I want but, rather, that I will be cared for as a loving Father cares for his child.  As I said before this is very difficult for me.  I have very little to go on in understanding what this looks like.  The counsel I am getting, however, is to allow the Father to show this to me.  In my writing I must move on to other matters but I must embrace the idea of allowing the Father to give me my daily bread for life. 

The entire creation is meant to be under the care of the Father.  Increasingly the culture is to be independent and self-sufficient.  We are intended to be cared for like little children.  We are also intended to have the love and loyalty of little children.  We are designed to follow the example of our elder brother, Jesus.

I must make this attitude the core of my daily existence.  I am unsure how to do that.  I am concerned that when things are easier that I will forget to see every day as one that I need to depend on the Father for everything.  Please, Dear Reader pray that I never forget this lesson again; not for a single day.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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15 October 2018

Daily Bread ~ Head Above Water


Greetings Dear Reader,

Choosing to live the path of Daily Bread is not a magic spell or arcane incantation.  There is not a secret formula or perfect ritual.  Like everything about faith and following it takes faith and discipline.

Every day, countless times it seems, I have to bat away worry and despair that I will not have what I need.  The deep dive is to refuse to let these things have purchase whilst being honest about them.  As my brother said, “it is an emotional roller coaster.”  It is also necessary.

There are a few practical things that I do to cope:

I refocus on the Father and that the promise is that he will supply all of our need.  I have seen him do this over and over.  I have been homeless.  I have been destitute.  I have also seen the Father provide in ways that I cannot imagine. 

When I find my mind worrying about something that is not a concern for today, I form a day wall.  I remind my mind that I am asking for DAILY bread not weekly or monthly.  If I am truly going to walk this path in faith I need to stop asking for the security of knowing the answers.  The real truth is that when I thought I had the answers I was wrong.  Jesus really does not want me to worry about tomorrow.

I remind myself of the things I have already seen that are not explainable but have met my needs.  There is no chance.  There are no coincidences.  Following in faith means acknowledging that every decision about what unfolds before me is based on the Father’s responses to my choices.

This is why obedience in faith is so very important.  The Father promises to care for us but our responsibility is to obey him so that we remain under his protection.  If it is raining and I step out from under the umbrella I should not be surprised if I get wet.  If I am not going to trust the Father and follow the Son then I should not be surprised when I am not protected from the consequences of that choice.

None of this is easy.  My nature is to want to know.  Faith is easy for me but it is also difficult at times.  I am a planner and projector.  Our culture and system are built on the idea of independence and self-sufficiency.  We would not tell a little child to care for all of his own needs.  This is how the Father wishes us to come to him.

I encountered a new Avril Lavigne song that describes how I feel at times.  Some days I am simply praying for the Father to keep me from drowning in all this.  “The singer revealed she wrote the song during her scary battle with Lyme disease and said that the lyrics are basically a prayer to God asking for help as she tries to get through a difficult time in her life.” (ABC News) 

Then as I am feeling like I am drowning in my own tears I hear this as well: “You feel like you are drowning.  You feel like you do not know what to do.  The pressure is building around you and you feel like you cannot handle it.  It is the Water Walker that promises to rescue you.” 

It is not easy.  It is not simple.  It is, however, the only path that faith allows.  If you are still walking with me Dear Reader then please pray for me.  If you have stopped following then be assured that I am praying for you. 

Head Above Water – Avril Lavigne

I've gotta keep the calm before the storm
I don't want less, I don't want more
Must bar the windows and the doors
To keep me safe, to keep me warm

Yeah, my life is what I'm fighting for
Can't part the sea, can't reach the shore
And my voice becomes the driving force
I won't let this pull me overboard

God, keep my head above water
Don't let me drown, it gets harder
I'll meet you there at the altar
As I fall down to my knees
Don't let me drown, drown, drown
Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown

So, pull me up from down below
'Cause I'm underneath the undertow
Come dry me off and hold me close
I need you now, I need you most

God, keep my head above water
Don't let me drown, it gets harder
I'll meet you there at the altar
As I fall down to my knees
Don't let me drown, drown, drown
Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown
Don't let me drown, drown, drown
Keep my head above water, above water

And I can't see in the stormy weather
I can't seem to keep it all together
And I, I can't swim the ocean like this forever
And I can't breathe

God, keep my head above water
I lose my breath at the bottom
Come rescue me, I'll be waiting
I'm too young to fall asleep
God, keep my head above water
Don't let me drown, it gets harder
I'll meet you there at the altar
As I fall down to my knees
Don't let me drown
Don't let me drown (don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown)
Don't let me drown (don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown)
Keep my head above water, above water.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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