03 January 2017

Second Thoughts – The Battle for Everything

Greetings Dear Reader,

Sometimes I will end the day with thoughts that are important to get out.  Usually I just write them and put them in my journal folder.  I have chosen that on occasion I will share them with you Dear Reader.

Every now and then something breaks.   It is deep down inside me and I can hear the crack and tear of heart and spirit.  Old voices long silenced by faith and following bellow from the depths reminding me that following Christ is a choice.  Unfortunately, it is a choice I must make every day.   

Some days, as in when the thing inside gets broken, are harder than others.   There are reassurances and epithets that others offer to make it better.   They are often lemon juice on the gaping paper cut.  I hit inconsolable moments where a tattered spirit and broken heart are all I seem to have. 

I hit one of those rifts in the universe of my journey over the last couple of weeks.  I still enjoyed Christmas and my time away from work writing and creating.   The wound, however, is still there.   Perhaps it is just that I am out of resources in certain areas.  Perhaps it is that I farther down the path but not further along the journey.   Perhaps it is that I am so saddened by the dangerous changes I see in the world. 

Likely I just need to give more of my inner workings over to Christ and allow him to carry me for a bit.   I love my Children and Grandchildren dearly.   They are solace when I get those moments of harmony with them.   They are beautiful creations of the Father and I delight in them.

Still I must explore the wound and see if I can find a way to mend.  “Something inside me is breaking.  Something inside says there’s somewhere better than this...”

If God Made You - Five for Fighting

Hey Kid... Your time has come to change
Though I need you more than I've needed anyone in any way tonight
Hey Kid... I know it won't be long
The Captain's calling...come to see you back where we belong

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Hey Kid...Do wishes count at all
Can you give me a sign...give me anything I won't tell a soul you told
Hey Kid...Will you hold me when I sleep
Will you find me when the tide decides that I got to leave

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this my love
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you... he's in love with me...

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”

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