Greetings
Dear Reader,
Castles
tall, I built them all
But I dream
that I'm trapped in the basement – Dan Fogelberg
One of the
things that is always a factor during the times I struggle with who I am is pride. I think about the things I have done and
somehow believe it is I that am owed. This
is always wrong. These lines from the
song used to be what I clung onto in order to feel that I was owed something by
those around me.
In
transitioning this song I instead see this as a reminder that I have built
nothing. Anything I have and anything I
am is a gift from God. Anything I think
I have built is because of God’s provision.
If all that I have is God’s and achieved through his will and grace then
nothing can be taken from me. It does
not matter what I think I am owed or who I wish would acknowledge me. What matters is that seek solace in
Christ.
The feelings
I have may be genuine but I must consider the source of those feelings. If they are generated by the thought that I
wish someone to act in a certain way toward me then I am unjustly placing
expectations on them. I have no right to
do this, even if the expectation is just and right. If I depend on anything but Christ for my sustenance
emotional or otherwise I am imposing my needs on others.
No matter
what I have built or how I feel about the result of that building, it is not my
place to place any expectation on others.
We do this to try and manufacture the feelings we need or to exact a
measure of control over others. We do
this to get needs met that are not truly met when we force the issue. No matter what I build or where I am in the
building of it, Christ is there and that is all that matters.
Wishing you
joy in the journey,
Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So
Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of
Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new
and old things from his great treasure store."
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