Greetings Dear Reader,
Sometimes I will end the day with thoughts that are
important to get out. Usually I just
write them and put them in my journal folder.
I have chosen that on occasion I will share them with you Dear Reader.
Time moves so quickly through the pinch. Death collects his toll along the way with no
regard for our plans and dreams. He
interrupts at will and we must deal with the loss. The souls are taken and we are left to tend
the shell and the pain.
We collect losses at an ever increasing rate as we age. I have met those who are the last of their
troop. They recount those who have gone
on ahead and the sadness lingers. The
toll is always too high and never refundable.
The pain never escapes entirely from our souls. No matter the level of comfort or
healing. The ones closest to us are the
hardest. They haunt me in that figurative
way that no others can see or feel to my satisfaction.
Sam counsels me in times of desperation and sorrow. He was
my first and deepest loss. Too young to understand I blamed myself. Sarah went quietly taking with her a blessing
not quite materialized. Rachel left
behind a gaping wound that never quite fills.
She would have been twenty-four today.
And there is another, unnamed and unknown.
We cannot change the loss and in each case the loss has done
worse. We have let steal dreams. I make bad choices at times because of the
pain. In doing so I dishonor the
lost. As I celebrate the Grandfather,
Sister, Daughter, and Grandchildren I will never hold while on the journey I vow
to make the journey honor them. I will
forfeit no more dreams due to the pain.
I will be the example I should be for them and for others.
The journey calls and we pay for the journey with our
dearest blood. The Father did as
well. He too lost so that he could call
us all to him. So I raise a glass to the
ghosts who haunt me bidding the love and peace.
I promise to do better. After all I do not sorrow without hope.
Wishing you joy in the journey,
Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer
who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home
owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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Hugs my dear friend. My heart is with you always.
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