Greetings Dear Reader,
Sometimes I will end the day with thoughts that are
important to get out. Usually I just
write them and put them in my journal folder.
I have chosen that on occasion I will share them with you Dear Reader.
I saw the movie A Dog’s Purpose this weekend. There will be no spoilers here. I found the movie to be well made if a bit
predictable. I think, however, that they
wished the predictability to prepare the viewer for the emotional impact.
I was not prepared at all.
The movie brought tears to my eyes as soon as the central story
began. It struck a deep well of long
capped over memories. They erupted in a geyser
of tears and pain that still echoes this evening.
Her name was Shabel’s Shady Lady. She was a champion Rough Collie. She was a gift from a family friend who
became my constant companion. We hiked
the woods and trails around our suburban home for hours and days. She was gentle, obedient, and very well
behaved.
We took her everywhere.
She slept in my room and would nuzzle me awake every morning before
school. When I returned in the afternoons
she was always waiting at the door for our pre-homework jaunt.
I will not chronicle the details of her loss. It is enough to say that others conspired to
take her from me. The loss was sudden,
tragic, and met with no compassion from my parents. I have not owned a dog since. I will not until it is completely on my
terms.
I cannot believe how raw and sharp the memories of that time
are. I thought that I had abandoned
them. Instead they lay in wait for me in
some frozen buried part of my heart and mind.
Yesterday they assaulted me with cruel determination to undo me.
It was necessary to visit the memories and forgive those who
harmed so deeply with intent. I had to
remember the treachery and forgive as I know that I never did. The pain is fresh and raw. I don’t even have pictures; just memories to
hold.
Walk
on the Ocean – Toad the Wet Sprocket
We spotted the ocean at the head of the trail
Where are we going, so far away?
And somebody told me that this is the place
Where everything's better and everything's safe
Walk on the ocean
Step on the stones
Flesh becomes water
Wood becomes bone
And half an hour later we packed up our things
We said we'd send letters and all those little things
And they knew we were lying but they smiled just the same
It seemed they'd already forgotten we'd came
Walk on the ocean
Step on the stones
Flesh becomes water
Wood becomes bone
Walk on the ocean
Step on the stones
Flesh becomes water
Wood becomes bone
Now we're back at the homestead
Where the air makes you choke
And people don't know you
And trust is a joke
We don't even have pictures
Just memories to hold
That grow sweeter each season
As we slowly grow old
Walk on the ocean
Step on the stones
Flesh becomes water
Wood becomes bone
Walk on the ocean
Step on the stones
Flesh becomes water
Wood becomes bone
Wishing you joy in the journey,
Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer
who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home
owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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