Greetings
Dear Reader,
It often
seems to me that there is little actual refuge from the things that besiege us. I have spiritual refuge in Christ and that
will suffice but on days like this I long for a way to eclipse myself.
As I drove
home last evening I saw the full moon in its yellow orange beauty and longed to
be seeing it across the sand and waves of Folly Beach. I am in desperate need of some time away from
my life. I need to rest, recharge, and
recreate. Please do not think that I am
not grateful for the life I have. I have
a good job and all that I need to live a good life but in my current struggles
I long for the long days of a youth so far away.
I want to
awaken to the sound of gulls and surf. I
want to be the first one awake and sit out on a screen porch watching the
shrimp boats ply their nets against the wind and chop of the ocean. I want to take that first sip of coffee and
melt into a day of walking, swimming, and crabbing.
Today is a
wonderful day on its own merit. It is
the fifth anniversary of my eldest Son and his lovely bride. I love them both dearly. It is a unexpected day off from work and I
will spend it in leisure. I am thankful
for another day to follow Christ and be his.
With all
that in place I am still fighting the lurking shadows that beg me to be
dissatisfied with my life and despair for the things that are deepest in my
heart. As Summer turns the corner eyeing
the fires of Autumn I feel a deep longing to for the things I fear will never
be for me.
Those of you
who reached out yesterday in support and kindness have my thanks and continued
desire for prayer on my behalf. Today,
however, I will do my best to maintain and be what I should be in Christ. It is his will that wills me to do so today
and not my own. I long for things I do
not have yet or things that I have lost and will never have again. I feel world weary and in need of an eternal
change. I will find it because I will
continue to follow Christ. I must be in
some deep cleft on the path where the very best efforts cannot afford a view
that is promising.
Wishing you
joy in the journey,
Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So
Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of
Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new
and old things from his great treasure store."
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I am so happy that we were able to give you the gift of those years at Folly. I too have been longing for the peace and joy of those waves, sand, sunrises & sunsets. I always feel closer to HIM when I am there. My memories of our times shared there are a beautiful gift. I wish we could all be there together with the whole family one more time before I go.
ReplyDeleteThank you for this memory.