03 August 2018
Surprised by Pain ~ Forgiveness
Greetings Dear Reader,
There are wounds that seem to have healed and then something launches all of the feelings involved in the time of the wound afresh. I came across a picture recently that should have been an innocent reminder of time gone by. The subject of the picture was a time of fun for me. Then I noticed something in the background that drew out another part of that time that was wretched and painful.
As I confronted the pain I felt it turn to anger. I found my mind replaying the rage at how I was treated and the hurt I still carried from forty years ago. The realization for me was that I had not forgiven the person who caused that pain. I had endured the harm and then moved on but I still held resentment toward the person who did the wrong.
Sometimes when I am surprised by pain I have to admit that I have not really forgiven others. I have to confront my own clinging to my sense of indignation and pride that I am the better person. The need to forgive is vital to my journey.
If I indulge my anger and pride then I will fail to forgive. Lack of forgiveness causes me to carry more than I should. It adds burden to my journey that slows my pace and my ability to be a help to others. I cannot fail to forgive and be loving and kind. The two will not live together.
When surprised by pain part of the inventory I must take is on forgiveness. If I have not forgiven those who harm me then it will weigh on my mind and heart. I must keep very short accounts with forgiveness. I cannot carry the weight of not doing so.
Wishing you joy in the journey,
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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