Showing posts with label Wants. Show all posts
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06 October 2019

Fat Souls ~ Closing Thoughts


Greetings Dear Reader,

We need fatter souls in so many ways.  Everything we give ourselves to should enhance the character and timbre of our souls.  When it sends leanness our way we should question if it really worth our effort.

It seems that we have become too attached to the things that drain our souls of life and health.  We are also seeking to fulfill the hunger this creates with things that cannot and will not nourish us. The world is not designed for us to long endure the false nourishment it offers instead of the good we find when following Christ.  We must remember that we do not belong here.  There is nothing in this world that will fatten our souls.  In truth, anything we embrace that limits our consumption of Christ as our only portion leaves us starving for the reality of enjoying him in each moment.

As I continue to seek this, I want to do it wholly and fully Dear Reader.  It is the blessings of loving others and dispensing kindness, grace, and mercy that fill our souls with power and endurance. We need fat souls.  We need to be gluttons for the love of the Father and wish for everyone to find it as deeply and fully as well.  We can consume it all and there will still be just as much left for everyone that seeks it.  Join me as we move on toward the Hallows and the inevitable turn toward the closing of the year.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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05 October 2019

Fat Souls ~ Heart Conditions


Greetings Dear Reader,

We all know that our physical diets must be heart-healthy.  We have to avoid the things in our physical diet that make us fat or damage our health.  I do ponder that we rarely make sure that our emotional and spiritual diets are the same.  


We often fail to feed our mind, soul, and spirit things that properly fatten them up.  The quest for fat souls must include doling the good things as well as avoiding the things that make them lean.  What we think, feel, and love determines the fat content of our souls.  In considering this there are things I must indulge in daily.

I spend time daily with the one I follow.  I align as best I can my thoughts with his and try to follow more closely.  I do not always succeed.  Sometimes I am distracted ty the things that make my soul lean.  I do not focus on the things that I should and give too much focus to the things that harm me.

Gluttony is wrong.  I can, however, gorge on the things that make my soul fat.  The idea is to fill up on the things that are good, kind, loving, holy, and righteous.  The choice is to be so fat-souled that we do not have time for the things that make it lean.  I must devote my time to fattening-up that which is eternal and not that which will not last.

As we walk together Dear Reader, we can share our soul-fattening experiences.  We can encourage each other to become fat-souled in all that we do together.  As we focus on Christ and journey home, we will be healthier and less burdened by those things that make us lean.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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04 October 2019

Fat Souls ~ Body of Evidence


Greetings Dear Reader,

Last week I wrote about a gym and how much I respected the owners and their philosophy.  This in no way detracts from that.  As with all things, however,  there can be excesses.  Whilst that couple has balance and good priorities in fitness, many do not.  This extends to all areas of our appearance.

It does very little good for us to put an extreme focus on our appearance.  Whether it is fitness, clothing, or our current hairstyle, we gain little that is genuinely valuable when we put the attention to sharply on our appearance.  The fashion industry is designed to keep our souls lean.  If we are not dissatisfied with our current appearance then they do not make more money.

Someone mentioned recently that some of my clothing is way out of style.  My response was that I was not naked and the clothing still worked.  It forced me to ponder what makes my soul fat when it comes to my appearance.  I do not give a great deal of thought as to what I will wear and once I find something comfortable, I stick with it.  I still feel that I have too much clothing to travel as lightly as I wish. 

It is not wrong to like fine clothes and to have a good fashion sense.  What harms us is when we focus on our appearance over the things that matter.  If I delay or neglect others because I am making sure I look perfect, I am surely starving my soul.  I may be indulging pride and vanity over love and consideration.

I cannot tell anyone else how to dress or what to wear.  It is not my place.  I know that our culture often pressures us to look a certain way.  It may also be that the subcultures in which we travel demand levels of conformity when it comes to our appearance.  What we are supposed to consider, however, what draws us closer to Christ when we prepare to go out.  I would rather spend my time and resources on things that make me more available to you Dear Reader.  It is not a nice look that creates a lean soul.  It is those things we buy or do to excess for the sake of our appearance that keep our souls from being fat and our hearts from being focused.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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03 October 2019

Fat Souls ~ Cheap Impatience


Greetings Dear Reader,

Yesterday I needed gift bags for the gifts I had for my Grandsons.  I went to one of those stores where everything costs a dollar because I knew that I could get two of the right size bags for a dollar.   As it turned out, the store I chose had an adventure for me

I quickly found my gift bags and perused the aisles for something to fill out the bags as what I had was small.  Then I proceeded to the checkout.  There was a line.  It was at least twenty people deep. Apparently, there was only one employee in the store.   As I settled in to await my turn to check out, the entertainment arrived in line three people behind me.

This lady had a single birthday card   She immediately assessed that she was going to have to wait to pay for her card.  Her next thought, expressed loudly was to complain to God about how she did not have time to wait in such a long line.  As the line grew behind me she included another lady in her complaint.  As the ladies and God conversed about the terrible inconvenience, I met eyes with the lady directly behind me with two baskets filled with glassware.  She quietly rolled her eyes as if to wish away the complaints without complaining herself.  I could tell that her baskets were heavy and offered her my trolley.  My three small items were easy to hold and she gratefully accepted

She expressed a little concern over the wait so I introduced her to my waiting in line math.  I had counted the people between me and the register.  It was 23.  Of that 23, there were three adults with children; 2, 1, and 3 respectively.  This meant I could subtract 6 from the 23, leaving 17.  The young lady smiled as she realized what I was doing.

She added to the distraction from the waiting by offering that she was getting wine glasses for a wedding rehearsal dinner and that she had been to three other stores to get enough of them.  We talked about the menu and her concern over getting the meal just right.  The line kept moving as we enjoyed our single-serving friendship.

The two ladies behind us kept trying to get God to complain about the line with them.  As I paid for my items, I thank the clerk for being so speedy and consistent.  The nice lady with the wine glasses approached the clerk as I was leaving.  She explained that she would need each of the glasses wrapped for protection.  The prayer ladies behind her became sure that God was not listening and prayed louder, or were they swearing and including God?  I could not be sure.

What I was certain of was that I got to use kindness and love to make someone a little more comfortable and put a little fat into my soul.  That alone, Dear Reader, was worth the wait.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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02 October 2019

Fat Souls ~ Feasts of Famine


Greetings Dear Reader,

For a brief period in my younger life, I was fit, strong, and worked hard to be that way.  Then due to choices and circumstances,  The imbalance left me pursuing food and not considering that I was leaving out part of my pursuit of Christ in the effort.
I gained much weight and was quite unhealthy.


In later years I determined to become more vigilant over what I sought and why I sought it.  The why of it was difficult and still challenges me.  The weight loss was significant and I learned the value of enjoying good food without over-indulging.  I also put things in perspective as to what is genuinely satisfying when it comes to eating.

Having recently been in the situation where my lack of resources required me to meter food consumption carefully, I have developed a better aspect of this.  When it comes to food, I think the need for fat souls is greater than we realize.  The problem we fail to address is gratitude for what we have.

We pursue more experiences or become slaves to eating or not eating.  The aspect is supposed to be gratitude for what we are given by the Father.  Instead, we chase after food or misuse it.  We love the food and not faithful following as our priority.  Then we wonder why we are dissatisfied with what we have obtained.  This is just what the Father is getting at in Psalm 106 when he sends leanness to their souls 

In every interaction about food, Jesus reminds us to depend on the Father to provide and to be thankful.  We are to seek the Father and allow him to provide for our needs.  That is what fattens our souls Dear Reader.  When we pursue the food, we will always hunger for closeness to Christ.  When we follow Christ, he promises that we will never lack anything that we need.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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01 October 2019

Fat Souls ~ Possessions


Greetings Dear Reader,

I spent the day helping my younger Son move.  By that, I mean that I drove a pickup truck filled with his stuff 800 miles to his new abode.  It was a good trip and went without incident.   What impressed me was how little stuff he had.  Some furniture is what required the truck.  The point is that he has surrounded himself with people and not possessions.

This caused me to ponder my continuing journey to possess less.  It also made me think about just how much stuff we have that we have little or no use for beyond possessing and storing it.  The things we have though, somehow become the owners and we are imprisoned by them.  I wonder then, how often we seek something from the Father and he looks at our storage and closets then gives us the “dad look”.

You all know that look when the parent looks at you without having to say a word.  We know what is being communicated and immedicably know the response.   I wonder how much of our stuff makes our souls lean in the eyes of the Father.  There are things that we have that weigh us down but starve us at the same time.  We have so much that we have no room for what we need.

As I work at becoming mobile and less burdened by this world, I know that there are still things I no longer need.  I also know that there are things that I need to acquire.  In seeking a fat soul, I want to be certain that I choose wisely.  What do you need to get rid of Dear Reader?  Let us agree to work toward lightening our load and fattening our souls.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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30 September 2019

Fat Souls ~ Opening Thoughts


Greetings Dear Reader,

When my eldest Son was eight, he told me the specific Transformer he wanted for Christmas.  We discussed that it had to be the large Optimus Prime truck that really transformed.  He even asked if it was all right to pray for it.

That evening we were reading the Bible together in our elbow to elbow time.  We were reading the Psalms and that evening’s reading was Psalm 106.  What must have caught his attention was this: “They soon forgot his works; they waited not for his counsel:
But lusted exceedingly in the wilderness, and tempted God in the desert.  And he gave them their request; but sent leanness into their soul.”

That night, as I tucked him into bed, he prayed as was our practice.  His prayer, as best I can remember it was this: “Dear Jesus, thank you for another good day.  Please let me get Optimus Prime for Christmas, but I still want a fat soul.”

His understanding of what mattered at that age impressed me greatly.  His faith was strong and his desire to be in the right mindset was beautiful.  He did get the Transformer he wanted and a few others.  I also made sure that he knew how I was impressed that he had the right attitude about what he wanted.

Recalling that recently had me pondering what we ask for from the Father.  What we request reflects our values and priority.  It reveals to us what we desire and the order in which we desire it.  We never wish to be in the position that what we desire is outside of what the Father desires for us. 

As I travel over the next few days, I will be pondering this and sharing my thoughts with you.  Please journey with me as we discuss how we approach what we want and filter it through the character the Father wishes us to possess.  As always, your thoughts and questions enrich my journey Dear Reader.  Let us figure out together how to have fat souls.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a homeowner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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20 August 2018

Negating Needs ~ Closing


Greetings Dear Reader,

As I address my need to negate my wants that I feel are needs some have been very kind.  Others have chosen to tell me what to do or think.  Thank you all for taking the time to give me your perspective.

It brings me to a genuine need that we all must embrace.  We never know the whole story unless it is our story.  I know what I have been through and what I have done and not done.  I know how things impact me.  I know the things that I have never told anyone.  This is also true of everyone else. 

We all have hidden chapters and undisclosed suffering.  When we bank on humans to understand those things we walk very shaky ground.  I am not saying that others do not help, listen, or render comfort.  I am saying that the only thing I am supposed to need is Christ and the rest must follow. 

The failures, offenses, betrayal, and rejection by others is not a reason to do the same or to change one’s belief.   It is, rather the reason we depend on Christ more deeply and love others more freely.  When I let my dependency slip from Christ to humans I move from what I need to what I want. 

For today I am just weary; weary of struggling with sin.  Today I long for things to be over and all things to be back to good; the good of creation.  Today I need to return to my post as a doorkeeper.  For now, however, I will just rest here for a while.  I am tired.  I need to rest.

Worn – Tenth Avenue North

I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn

Though I’m worn
Yeah, I’m worn

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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19 August 2018

Negating Needs ~ Home


Greetings Dear Reader,

I live in a nice apartment.  It is nowhere close to the abode I have dreamt of for so many decades.  That dream is long gone now.  Too much water is past under bridge for that vision to be realized without direct intervention from God.

Even though the place I live as nice, and affords a pool for my children and grandchildren to enjoy (the real reason I chose this place), I live alone.  In truth, this means that I’ve been homeless for three years.

Growing up the places I lived never felt like a home to me.  The abuse, strife, and lack of real love created a space that was never safe and from which I escaped as soon as I could.  I wandered for a while alone and unsure.  I almost lost myself then.

I returned to the place I grew up and foolishly reentered the household that did so much damage to me.  It was only for a short time because I was going to marry the girl I loved all through high school.  When I held our firstborn son and looked into my wife’s eyes for the first time I felt that it could be home.

All too soon I learned how patently unrewarding I must be as a companion.  I love my son and was determined not to visit upon him the same pains I had endured.  For a brief time, there was a feeling of home again after our second son arrived and I made progress in my career that allowed me time to be a good father.

Also growing in me was in the overwhelming need to provide a sense of home for others.  The light in me long to help others feel what I so desperately lacked for so many years.  The darkness in me use my concerns over the wellbeing of others to feed its desire to control.  The truth of the world is that no matter how much could you do at to beginning, when you fail it just does not matter.

Maybe I have missed a vital truth all along.  Maybe my need to feel at home is just to want created from the depths and sorrow of living and lonely fear for so long.  Perhaps in negating my needs that are not needs, I even need to abandon my desire to have a home; to feel it home.  Along the way every human that has promised to be part of my home has eventually rejected me and said that I was to blame.

The vital truth, Dear Reader is that this place, this world is not my home and perhaps if I give up all desire for it to have a any feel of home I can destroy that in me that others find so abhorrent.  We are all blind to the worst thing we do.  When those we claim to love fail we do not restore them in love.  We do not draw closer to them to help them heal.  We leave them alone in pain, sorrow, and salve our own hurts by judging them worse than we are.

It is not lost on me that it is three years to the day that I became homeless in my comfy little apartment.  I think I am done trying to seek any home but the one that lies at the clearing at the end of the journey.  That is where I am headed anyway and anything in between is just temporary shelter for a lonely traveler.

I Will Bring You Home – Michael Card

Though you are homeless
Though you're alone
I will be your home
Whatever's the matter
Whatever's been done
I will be your home
I will be your home
I will be your home
In this fearful fallen place
I will be your home
When time reaches fullness
When I move my hand
I will bring you home
Home to your own place
In a beautiful land
I will bring you home
I will bring you home
I will bring you home
From this fearful fallen place
I will bring you home
I will bring you home

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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18 August 2018

Negating Needs ~ Possessions


Greetings Dear Reader,

I had not intended to address possessions as I have previously done that at length.  As I work through my heart and mind relative to needs, however, something odd occurred.  I was suddenly enveloped in the desire to be rid of almost everything. 

It descended on me in an almost suffocating manner.  I felt suddenly walled in by all the things that I have that I do not need.  If this is imposing itself on me after I have already purged so much then I think I must go further.  I think that if I am feeling this at the same time I am redefining what I need versus what I want then I must consider another wave of reduction. 

I know that I have more than I need.  I have been purging books all summer which is difficult for me.  I think that I must turn my attention so some other things as well.  My possessions feel more like an anchor than anything else today.  Some things are necessary to my work and craft. 

As for the rest, my attachments are memorial, sentimental, or small obsessions.  I like to collect things.   I have sold off my most valuable collections over the last year to supplement my lack of income. I will address the small collections in the coming week.  I think then I will start at one end of my abode and progressively removed everything that I have not used recently.  It will be taxing but it may also be freeing. 

The Things We Leave Behind – Michael Card

There sits Simon, so foolishly wise
Proudly he's tending his nets
Then Jesus calls and the boats drift away
And all that he owns he forgets

But more than the nets, he abandoned that day
He found that his pride was soon drifting away
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Matthew was mindful of taking the tax
And pressing the people to pay
Hearing the call, he responded in faith
And followed the light and the way

And leaving the people so puzzled he found
The greed in his heart was no longer around and
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Every heart needs to be set free
From possessions that hold it so tight
'Cause freedom's not found in the things that we own
It's the power to do what is right

With Jesus, our only possession
And giving becomes our delight
And we can't imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

We show a love for the world in our lives
By worshiping goods we possess
Jesus has laid all our treasures aside
And love God above all the rest

'Cause when we say no, to the things of the world
We open our hearts to the love of the Lord and
It's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

And when we say no, to the things of the world
We open our hearts to the love of the Lord and
It's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind
Oh, and it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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17 August 2018

Negating Needs ~ Companions


Greetings Dear Reader,

I know that I have stated many times how much I abhor living alone.   There are many reasons for this and most of them are deeply personal.  It is not something I will redress here.  What I do need to consider is what my genuine needs are as regards companions.

We are designed to be social people.  We do better when we care for each other and share good things with each other.  When I am out and the world my focus is to be that of showing kindness, grace, and love to everyone.  When I am back at my abode, however, there is something about isolation that is difficult for me.

Even though I hate this, it does not mean that there is a genuine need there.  I am not saying that I do not have a genuine need for companionship and family.  I am saying that I must define clearly where need ends and want begins.  Even in the deep feelings of isolation and the torment I feel over it, it is very clear that I define wants his needs.

If I am going to be all that I should be, then I must squelch the wants that are not needs.  This is much easier to say than to put into place.  Perhaps the question I can put up against those feelings is one that I use against filtering other activities.  The question is, “Who does it serve?”

Everything about my life should be focused on lovingly serving Christ and the needs of others.  Beyond that, I’m supposed to count on Christ to meet my needs.  Even if my wants have good and honest motivation, if they are not needs, I must strip them away because it is not me that determines things.

I think that we all across the barrier between want and need when it comes to good things.  Just because I want peace of mind about something does not mean that I need it.  Instead, I must use my faith to realize that I and exercising a want and not trying to meet a need.  I think that many of the things we do to damage close relationships are involved in forgetting where this line is.

I can only become my best self and every moment if I constantly am aware of the difference between wanting to know and needing to have faith.  It really is the essence of following Christ that this difference matters.  If I am to acknowledge Christ in a all my ways, it must go is deep as the very core of my wanting to know that things are OK.  It must reach all the way to my worry, doubts, and fears.

I do need friends and companions.  I do need fellow travelers.  This does not mean that I get to define them the way I want to.  It does not mean that I can place demands on anyone and then say I am doing it out of care for them.  The answer of the question of who it serves becomes me.  That is not following in faith.  So, as frightening as it may be I must strip away everything that is an interpersonal one and not a genuine need.  I must not exercise my wants because then they become stronger and represent themselves as needs.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”
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