“Father, please show me my sin.”
This sin hit me this morning as I was committing it. It is so clear in Scripture that we are to
give freely without hope of reward or return.
Often I find that I am bargaining with God in my mind. It is not when it is clear that God wishes me
to do something. It is when I want something
from God.
It goes like this. I
find myself thinking that I would like for God to do something for me. Instead of just asking and trusting I list
all the things I could do for God if he this thing for me. I hope that you Dear Reader realize how
preposterous this is. There is nothing
God needs me to do for him. He is completely
self-sufficient.
These “if then” conversations reveal selfish motives and a
manipulative spirit. I am using my
God-given gift to negotiate in an attempt to get God to do what I want. Even typing that last sentence I feel so
foolish. I truly hope that sometimes God
just laughs at me and pats me on the head.
I realize though how offensive it is for me to do this and will find a
way stop.
I need to simply acknowledge that God is a loving Father who
wants to give good things to me. He
wants me to ask with a heart full of trust and respect. If I simply delight in him he will give me
the desires of my heart. If I give up
everything and simply follow in faith all that I need will be given me.
Wishing you joy in the journey,
Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer
who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home
owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure
store."
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