183,000 Stages of Grief – Resigned – Closing Thoughts

Greetings Dear Reader,

Since the only way out is through I must resign myself to how I feel this year.  In the midst of this I know that the Father is faithful.  I know that he has not left me alone in my grief.  I also know that he is only as effective as a I allow him to be for me. 

As I watch others endure grief I am thankful that I do not sorrow without hope.  It does not remove the pain.  It does provide direction and motivation.  Even when I travel in pain I do so in faith.  I feel pity for those who encounter grief and have lost or never had faith to see them through it.

I recall the hopelessness involved in loss when before I had faith.  It was so devastating.  The losses since are just as painful but there is hope.  That is the substance of continuing.  That is that energy that keeps me moving. 

Death and the grave will not win.  The pain will pass.  For now it will subside.  Days will flow through the glass and perhaps my passing will cause grief and loss for others.  I would rather that the Father set all things right sooner.  For now I follow in faith.  For now the only answer I have is Jesus.  “Don’t ask me for the answers; I’ve only got one.  A man leaves his darkness when he follows the Son.”

Broken – Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight

Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time

I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts

I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain, there is healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head

I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead

I still see your reflection inside of my eyes

That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

with a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain (in the pain), is there healing

In your name (in your name) I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin') I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day

Just to see what you throw my way

And I'm hanging on to the words you say

You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone

I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

with a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain(In the pain) there is healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm barely holdin' on to you.

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn

Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”

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