Greetings Dear Reader,
I was destroyed a little today. I went to see the live actor version of the
movie Beauty and the Beast. It was
marvelous. It was beautiful and beastly
all at once. They added a couple of
amazing songs. One of them ravaged my
heart.
You see if you have not figured it out I am a romantic. I have always loved this redemption story;
even the original one that is quite different from the Disney version. I know that I am a beast. I know that I am hard to love. I tried when I was very young to shut my
heart off from love but failed.
Then I learned how to love.
It has been a beautiful curse every day since. I love others deeply. I am also flawed in many ways and apparently not
worth the cost of reaming with when it is hard.
This is not self-pity or self-deprecation. It is an open repetition of what those who
love me have told me.
Still when I love I never stop loving. I deal in hope and grace as often as
possible. Those that I have loved the
most have judged me the most harshly. I
have healed from much of it. I was even
thinking I could “move on” from some of it. Then this song ravaged me in a filled
theatre.
As I work through what a fool I am and the fool I am to be as
a Christ follower I wonder how my tattered heart fits into it. I am preparing for Holy Week. Part of that is seeing that I am a fool to
carry unrequited love but that foolishness is never wasted. It is a glimmer of what Christ does for
us.
As I consider the foolishness of loving others please walk
with me Dear Reader. I need to lean on
you a bit at moments and I need you to see that I love you even when you find
me unworthy. It is a tale as old as
time. It is all true. Loving is such a very dangerous thing and the
folly of fools. I would, however, rather
be a fool.
Evermore
– Beauty and The Beast 2017
I was the one who had it all
I was the master of my fate
I never needed anybody in my life
I learned the truth too late
I'll never shake away the pain
I close my eyes but she's still there
I let her steal into my melancholy heart
It's more than I can bear
Now I know she'll never leave me
Even as she runs away
She will still torment me, calm me, hurt me
Move me, come what may
Wasting in my lonely tower
Waiting by an open door
I'll fool myself she'll walk right in
And be with me for evermore
I rage against the trials of love
I curse the fading of the light
Though she's already flown so far beyond my reach
She's never out of sight
Now I know she'll never leave me
Even as she fades from view
She will still inpire me, be a part of
Everything I do
Wasting in my lonely tower
Waiting by an open door
I'll fool myself she'll walk right in
And as the long, long nights begin
I'll think of all that might have been
Waiting here for evermore!
Wishing you joy in the journey,
Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer
who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home
owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure
store.”
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