Greetings Dear Reader,
One of my greatest regrets in life are lost moments with my
Sons. Because of choices I made I missed
time with them that I would have rather had.
I cannot blame anyone else and I am sure this will haunt and shame me to
my grave.
How is this related to The Riddle? I think that all parents walk through a place
of regret. They make choices that at the
moment they refuse to see will have life-long impact. We need to be so careful how we treat each
other. We need to be sure that we do not
live attitudes or have actions that teach our children things that will harm
them.
Our children will live out the things we do whether we or
they realize it. They will modify our
failings to fit their lives or they will create new failures of their own in
reaction to avoiding ours. I do not mean
that my children are failures. I am very
proud of them. What I do mean is that I
can see in their choices some of the damage done by my wrong ones.
Having just had a wonderful evening with my children over
the weekend I know that they love me and value me. There is in my heart still the constant din of
the ways in which I have failed them.
Part of the riddle for me is how to heal that damage. It may be beyond me to do it. It may be that the natural consequence of my
choices is to live with that failure. There is, however, always hope for healing, forgiveness,
and reconciliation.
Wishing you joy in the journey,
Aramis Thorn
Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, "That is why every writer
who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home
owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure
store."
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I truly empathize with you, as I too made that mistake with my children when I was a single parent. They never knew how very much I loved them and I hcan never make that up to them. As a result, they do not want my company.
ReplyDeleteYour sons love you very much. I know. We all make mistakesy, big and little.